I know I suffer from depression my sience grade has begun to drop my basketball coach is helping me get it up
I have a lot of problems some I tell my friends the others im not completely sure about
I also dont talk to my friends as much which is weird for me
I just try to ignore them I feel like I'll never be the same a girl who isn't really my friend just on my basketball team opened up to me and I opened up to her in return so her and one of my friends is trying to help me but I ignore them and I hate are counselor I went to her last year and told her some of my life and she thought I felt better after are session but I actually felt worse
the girl from my basketball team was going to give me her phone number so we could talk but I ignored her and I hate to say it but some of this depression is my brothers faults they messed up their lifes big time so ever since I was in the third or fourth grade all I heard was yelling and i remember when my dad was drinking and my brothers were going to leave for their friends houses and I begged them to take me with because I hate seeing my dad drunk it scares me I never can tell anymore who my dad is
plus I have so many other troubles I wil not put on here
But I know I need help because I know its depression I have been crying almost every day and I repeat I will never be the same I try to act happy at are basketball games and practices so nobody knows even though all the snobs on the team never cared when I was younger and burst out crying all the time they never even asked me whats wrong so now I try to act like them at are basketball games but I can feel their rejection when I make a joke and they dont laugh or some of them at our games I will yell pass me the ball and I'll be right next to them where they can esily do a bounce pass under the person on thems arm but they never do

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im so sorry that you feel this way, maybe you should start a stress box. thats what i did. i decorated it and filled it with all the things that make me smile. like, pictures of my friends, candy, my favorite perfume that helps me relax, my blankie, and other things that help me relax. why dont you try that. or have a diary and let out all of your feelings on it then you can go out and enjoy life.
or maybe you should just talk to your mom and ask her to take you to a doctor.
good luck i hope you feel better

Depression Hurts! When you hear that you think yeah right but it does really. I understand how you feel, I have been there. Maybe not with all of your problems but I have had a lot of what you spoke of. You can talk to me anytime if you need to. I know you don't want to get your mom to take you to a doctor because I didn't but that was the best thing I did. My depression was causing migraines and chronic pain. After seeing the doctor and he gave me some medicines I am doing much better.

see the problem is im not that depressed i mean seem weak on the outside but im strong inside its like I felt depression but I tryed not to show it to anybody and I knew It was getting worse and worse and then I just broke down and told 2 trusted people but they couldn't help me either I talk about depression on a diffrent site to a teenage group (not my depression) and they says depression causes anger and I have getting madder and madder by the day alot of times people see me punching a wall or yelling at my friends if they upset me then i sit on the empty part of the long lunch table secluded from others not eating at first they try to help but then they just think "Why should I help this stupid mental patient I have a life" I will never see a doctor I know I need one but you dont know about my parents my brother was depressed like me but he tried to go goth instead so now my parents will think of me as him she already saw the chat on depression because I left it on the screen and was interogating me I made it seem like depression was a jokey thin k like I said I hide it then it will hurt 10x harder

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Hey dont get disheartend.I Know how it feels when we are depressed.
You know sometimes we expect some thing from the our relationship or from our friends that we forget that wheter they can bare the weight of that expactation.
I would like to tell you that try to get rid of your desires as much as you can.
Once you start practising that you find a new change in your attitude.
Remember one thing always once you get traped in the net of desires you wont be able to get out of it and result will be a depressed life.
please try to follow what I have told you here and let me know.
Thank you.

Tuba,

I am very sorry that you have been feeling this way. Unfortunately, while you have lots of online friends here at betweentalk no one here is qualified to offer you the help that you need. You need to talk to your parents, trusted teacher, or perhaps another important adult in your life. They will be able to get you the professional help you need right now.

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